I am a chronic over-analyzer. I tend to absolutely overthink everything. I would not refer to myself as a perfectionist by any stretch of the imagination (if you want confirmation of that, just check out my lack of organizational skills), however, when I do something I want to do it well and feel like I owe it to myself and anyone else involved to do the best I possibly can. That tends to cause me a lot of lost sleep as I run through scenarios and conversations that have not even happened in the middle of the night. That quality also makes it difficult to take a step or a leap of faith when I feel called to do something. Rather than thinking about the possibilities of success if I take the step, I tend to think of what kind of ways I could fail.

Sadly, that way of thinking is the polar opposite of how we are supposed to really live out our faith. I don’t recall reading a story in the Bible where the characters had to “think and pray” about anything. They just did what they felt called to. Whether it was Rahab risking her life to protect the Hebrew spies (see Joshua 2), Noah building an Ark when he had never even seen rain (see Genesis 5), or my personal favorite, Peter stepping out of the boat (see Matthew 14), all of these giants of the faith took steps of faith, without hesitation.

I especially love Peter, mostly because of his impulsive faith. Sometimes he gets a bad rap because he is impulsive. However, I have a different perspective. I think he is a giant in the area of faith. The man stepped out of a boat, during a storm!!! Who thinks that way? If you look at the story of Peter walking on water as a whole, the rest of the apostles reacted the way a lot of us would. They were fearful. They thought Jesus was a ghost. They had analysis paralysis and likely thought Peter was insane when he called out to Jesus and stepped out of the boat. The funny thing is though, that their hesitation made them miss out on another miracle (by the way, this happened right after Jesus miraculously fed a multitude).

I don’t want to do that. I don’t want to miss out on the miraculous things God has planned for me, because of fear of failure. Or worse yet, I don’t want to let the fear of what others may or may not think of me stop me from stepping out in faith. I lived the first 2/3 of my life missing out on things because I was trying to please others or look a certain way. Whether it was trying to please my parents, teachers or friends, or trying to portray myself as a perfect little Christian, I let those things keep me from taking any bold steps outside of what was “pleasing to man”. I don’t want to live that way. I want to be more like Peter and take bold steps of faith.

“For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ.” Galatians 1:10 ESV

It is very hard to not want to please, or for some try to impress, those around us. We all want to feel like we belong and are accepted. What isn’t okay, is sacrificing our calling and our faith in order to be a part of that “in-crowd”. My prayer for all of us is that we would shed a little of that cautious nature, and start having a more impulsive faith like that of Peter, Ruth, Paul, Rahab, and countless others. When I leave this world, I want it to be said of me that I wasn’t afraid to take a step, or leap, of faith.